All men are made of water, do you know this? When you pierce them, the water leaks out and they die.
- A Game of Thrones, George R.R. Martin

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Project Hiroki: Thirty Days of Joyshe

Music: "Prayer for a Friend" by Casting Crowns


In celebration of my birth month, I plan to launch a small project called “Project Hiroki: Thirty Days of Joyshe.”

Similar to my 30 Snapshots project two years ago, only this time, I’ll be using my beloved Hiroki (camera phone) to take the pictures. Photos will include everything and anything under the sun (or moon and the stars) that show who I am—my little quirks, philosophies, favorites, and even pet peeves. 

Expect a lot of cat photos, and maybe chocolate. And books. Must not forget books.

Hello, November!

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Ang Sampung Utos, An Afterword

Music: "Who Are You" by Ryan Ocampo


A month after it happened, I finally found the time to write about the play. Which is a good thing, I think, since the euphoria from two successful runs has passed, the frustration over the minute mistakes (mostly) forgotten. At least now, I can look at the overall experience in a more objective manner (pfft, as if), and try to distance myself from the mixed feelings of elation and irritation over everything that had gone right and wrong.

Pre-press . . . or something
The concept for the play came about while I was brainstorming for ideas for our annual production. I wanted to perform “Korinto,” a play by YESHUA that I watched way back in college. Unfortunately, I couldn’t acquire the rights to produce it, let alone a copy of the script to go over. Desperate, I pleaded with God to give me something, anything, I could present to the members of our theater ministry, something that goes in line with our theme for the year—instruction for godly living.

And because God answers prayers, he gave me the perfect idea for the play. Because what better way to instruct Christians on godly living than use the Ten Commandments as a springboard? Thus, the play “Ang Sampung Utos” was born.

It took me more than three months to write the whole thing, starting sometime around March and going past my end-of-May deadline. One day before the scheduled auditions, I was still having the script approved by our pastor and ministry adviser. One day before the first rehearsal, I was still revising the script, checking for mistakes I might have overlooked. I was unprepared, and I knew it. Still, I knew God would be with us every step of the way, so, armed with the third draft of the script and with little idea on how to go about the blockings, I set off, met the cast, and started with the production.

And nothing is impossible with the Lord, it’s true. Because four months after our first meeting, we were able to perform in front of a full house, all eager to learn God’s message through the script he provided us. And when the final curtain call ended, and everyone clapped their hands, I couldn’t help but think silently, “Thank you so much, Lord. All glory to you.”

Up close and personal?
My favorite part of the play is the dialogue between Jason (the pastor) and Catherine (the wife of Daniel, Jason’s best friend) in the "Huwag kang mangangalunya" (Thou shalt not commit adultery) scene. I think it’s one of the scenes I enjoyed writing the most. I can’t imagine myself doing what Catherine did there, so it was really challenging (and fun!) for me to come up with lines that will make her flirty, seductive, but still believable. And I loved that the actors who played the parts were spot on—Malvin, who portrayed Jason, was everything awkward and dignified and uncomfortable with Catherine’s advances, while Jas (Catherine) did a great job of all but throwing herself at Jason’s feet (she latched on his shoulders a couple of times though). She portrayed the part so well that had she been a real person, I’d want to slap her hard . . . twice. On the same cheek. And when she said, "Bakit, Pastor, don't you find me beautiful?" and then paused for effect, I almost squealed.

/coughs

Anyway, my favorite line was delivered by Matthew, Daniel and Catherine’s son in the "Huwag kang magnanakaw" (Thou shalt not steal) scene. When Daniel asked him if he saw the money he left on his study table, Matthew answered that he didn’t. And when Daniel insisted, as if trying to get him to confess, in comes the punch line:

Matthew: Hay naku, Dad, may tawag diyan eh . . . old age. (Geez, Dad, that’s called old age.)

And I love, love, love it because the two actors who played Matthew delivered the line so differently, giving the character a twist in each run. Agi was more pang-asar (Annoying? I can’t think of the proper translation right now.), while Nico was a little more respectful of his dad, and was more like just stating a fact. It’s nice to see how different actors interpret the same script, which is why I love working on alternates for roles, if I can afford to.

Speaking of alternates, the Kayla (Jason and Andrea's daughter) actresses did a superb job showing two different personalities for one character. Rosette was a little more mature and sophisticated, maybe?, while Jasmine was childish, to the point where she was literally (no, not figuratively) bouncing up and down the stage during her scenes. But hey, both interpretation of the character worked!

But my best actor award goes to Nelson, who portrayed the character of Daniel. From the responsible, gullible father to a protective husband who will go all guns ablazing against whoever dared to say a bad word about his wife, he was able to bring to life a character that I didn't really pay attention to when I was writing the draft of the script (tee hee). I mean, I know what I want to happen to him in the end, but I was more concerned on how to make Catherine exceedingly annoying but someone the audience could relate to (especially in the later scenes), and how to make a round character out of Andrea (from the typical housewife who envies her neighbor to a person who put her complete trust in the Lord), that I didn't pay too much attention to Daniel. Not that it mattered, because Nelson was able to flesh out what little personality I gave the character, so much that I never want to be at the receiving end of his anger. On stage, or in real life. On the other hand, Michael, who played alternate, gave the character a completely different personality. It was more of internal anger that I saw in him, in contrast to Nelson's external outburst. 

And Lhen, the actress for Andrea? Gaah, perfect mother material. Especially the scene where she was talking to Kayla about her reasons for going to church (Alalahanin ang araw ng Sabbath upang ipangiling / Remember the Sabbath day and keep it holy). And when she said, "Ano ka bang bata ka. Syempre, ina mo ako. Lagi akong handang makinig sa mga saloobin mo (or something, I forget the exact line haha!)," I shivered pleasantly at the motherly-ness of it all. And like Kayla, I almost said out loud, "Ma, salamat po ha."

Curtain call
Yes, it's a wonderful experience. Yes, the endless rehearsals gave me endless headaches. Yes, given the chance, I would do everything all over again. After all, I always make it a point to tell my team that we do what we do to give glory to the Lord, and not to ourselves. So in the end, it matters little if an actor forgot a line or missed his cue, or if the audience clapped thunder-loud during the curtain call, because no matter how much we appreciate their applause (I’d be lying if I said we don’t) or how disappointed we were that the play wasn’t executed as perfectly as we wanted, if we know, deep in our hearts, that we gave it our all for the one true Director of our lives, well, isn’t that more than enough?

Saturday, October 27, 2012

The Work of God

Music: "What This World Needs" by Casting Crowns

The perfect devotional reading greeted me a good morning as I was outlining in my head the things I need to do today (which include, but not limited to, reading and organizing the fifty or more columns I received for a side project, meet up with my friends, finish another blog post I've started weeks ago about the last play we produced, and, uhh, go jogging).

"It's not easy to stop trusting ourselves and rely on Christ. In this world, the message we hear is that value comes from what we do, what we earn, and what we accomplish. If we believe that, life becomes a prolonged struggle to fix everything that's broken and strive for perfection in all we do, we'll be driven and compulsive, busier than God ever meant us to be, trying to do extremely well what He never intended us to do."

Admittedly, I find it hard to rely on others, especially when it comes to tasks I need to finish. My way of thinking usually goes like this: "I better do this or that, since I know best what output I want. Besides, why bother other people when it's something I can accomplish by myself?" And often I find myself at the verge of burning out, cranky and moody, because I have too much on my plate. Plus I sound a little conceited. Like, give me your best shot, world, I can take it.

And that's just it. I can't always take it.

"Jesus was never that busy. Throughout His public ministry, He had much to do and only a little more that 3 years to do it, yet His pace was measured and deliberate.
"And so it comes to this: God's work must be done by God. We work, but we must rely on Him every step of the way."

 And so I love the little reminder highlighted in bold. God's work must be done by God. It reminds me of that famous Psalty's song:

It's not by might
Nor by power
But by my spirit
It's not by might
Nor by power
Says the Lord

It's not by my own power, but by God's spirit that I can do anything.

"Before you do anything else, begin your day by expressing your dependence on God. Ask Him to help you rely on Him. Growing faith, like any other job, is a job for God!"

And so my prayer is:

Lord, forgive me for depending too much on myself and too little on You. Thank you for reminding me that it's not by my own might that I can accomplish the  things I need to do, but by your spirit. Please help me be more dependent on you, and to let you do your work through me. Amen.

Friday, October 19, 2012

Partial "Read" List (as of October 19, 2012)

Music: "Wonders of the Deep" by The Chemical Brothers

After drafting my partial book list for 2012, I realize that I've read A LOT of YA books this year. And that I didn't finish reading anything last July. Perhaps I overdid it last June and decided to let my brain cells recuperate? I cannot remember. 

Anyway.

January:
A Lion Among Men (Gregory Maguire) **
100 Cupboards (N.D. Wilson) ***

February:
Maniac Magee (Jerry Spinelli) ***

March:
Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde (R.L. Stevenson) **

April:
Cirque du Freak: Vampire Mountain (Darren Shan) *
Cirque du Freak: Trials of Death (Darren Shan) **

May:
Freak the Mighty (Rodman Philbrick) **
Kit's Wilderness (David Almond) *
Fish-Hair Woman (Merlinda Bobis) **

June:
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time (Mark Haddon) *
Holes (Louis Sachar) - second reading ***
Dandelion Fire (N.D. Wilson) ***
Odd is On Our Side (Dean Koontz) **
Diary of a Wimpy Kid (Jeff Kinney) *
Diary of a Wimpy Kid: Rodrick Rules (Jeff Kinney) **
Salingkit (Cyan Abad-Jugo) ***

July:
OMGWTFBBQ. I didn't read anything?!

August:
Bell Prater's Boy (Ruth White) **

September:
The Name of the Wind (Patrick Rothfuss) ***

October:
Joey Pigza Loses Control (Jack Gantos) *
The Chestnut King (N.D. Wilson) **

So that's 14 YA novels, 5 "regular" novels (because calling them "adult novels" sounds wrong), and 1 graphic novel, so far. I wonder how many more I can add to the list before the year ends?

Legends:
* Hmm, okay, I guess :-/
** Liked it :-)
*** Loved it! Definitely a great read! :-D

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

This. (a.k.a. George Orwell's concept of power)

Music: "Chase This Light" by Jimmy Eat World

"How does one man assert his power over another, Winston?"

Winston thought. "By making him suffer," he said.

"Exactly. By making him suffer. Obedience is not enough. Unless he is suffering, how can you be sure that he is obeying your will and not his own? Power is in inflicting pain and humiliation. Power is in tearing human minds to pieces and putting them together again in new shapes of your own choosing. Do you begin to see, then, what kind of world we are creating? . . .

"There will be no loyalty, except loyalty toward the Party. There will be no love, except the love of Big Brother. There will be no laughter, except the laugh of triumph over a defeated enemy. There will be no art, no literature, no science. When we are omnipotent we shall have no more need of science. There will be no distinction between beauty and ugliness. There will be no curiosity, no employment of the process of life. All competing pleasures will be destroyed. But always--do not forget this, Winston--always there will be intoxication of power, constantly increasing and constantly growing subtler. Always, at every moment, there will be the thrill of victory, the sensation of trampling on an enemy who is helpless. If you want a picture of the future, imagine a boot stamping on a human face--forever."

-1984, George Orwell